Well just so everybody knows... I passed spanish for the semester with a 69.6 (Yes I lol'd) So I passed. Me and my friend who knows I like her and, well... I know she likes me.. Decided to try and hit it off? You know... We've both been though some pretty crazy shit involving the opposite sex. Espically her... And, I mean stupid, unnecessary, retarded shit... Well we talked about it one day and we both kinda found out that we've liked each other a lot (And I mean A LOT) longer than we've both known... Well we were hanging out the other night... We were both with a bunch of friends and it was a pretty weird bunch.
One of which is obsessed with her and would do anything to go out with her, one who pretty much doesn't like her but thinks shes hot, one who she had gone out with a few years ago but broke up with her, her friend, and me. Now for some reason. We started to play truth or dare. I was thinking "What the fuck? I'm a Junior in high school... I haven't played this since the 7th grade band bus... What the hell?" But, I played along and, well... Played along XD They finally got to me after a few minutes of stupid dares and truths and they asked me. Dare. The girl I liked told me to kiss her friend on the cheek. Why the hell not? I've kissed girls before and usually on the lips. (I have been told that I am a REALLY shitty kisser though but, well why not?) Just a little peck on the cheek. Nothing special. Well we finally got to spin the bottle which is another game I haven't played since middle school days. And, The girl I liked spinned. And, it landed on me. The deal was we had to kiss each other on the lips but, we all agreed that this wouldn't be our first kiss with anyone case we had some people here who had never kissed anybody before. it was just a stupid game. We finally kissed but, didn't make it anything special because. Well? What the hell do you think? It's a stupid ass game XD We all eventually ended up having to leave and, she kinda told me to follow her into a area away from everybody else. We kinda just stood there for a little while... And talked about how she had to hurry because she had to leave really fast. WE kinda got closer and closer and it led to a pretty good kiss... I don't think I've ever had a better kiss in my life... I thought it was perfect. I kinda ended it a little quickly because I knew she had to leave and I didn't want her friend that was waiting for her to get mad. I asked if she heard some noise... In all a pretty lame excuse... I grabbed her hand on the way back and she left with her other friend. Pretty amazing night in my opinion... Really amazing... The best night i've had in a long, long time... Later that night she messaged me... Her status on myspace was "confused" and said something about not knowing what to do. We got to talking about it... And she said she didn't feel any "sparks" when we kissed... I said something about whatever choice she made would be right in this situation because it was completely up to her... I was fucking heartbroken... dammit all... dammit fucking all! This shit pisses me off... Well.. If us not going out or anything makes her happy... Then I'm pretty okay with it.... God this just sucks.... I'm seeing fucking fireworks and explosions and she doesn't even see a spark....? Man relationships suck total ass...